What Goes Through the Mind of a Bad Blogger

A conversation I had with myself (and in my head… I know better than to walk around mumbling to myself)

Ok it has been forever since you blogged… do you want to blog… do you like it?

Yes I love writing, it’s relaxing and enjoyable and I never feel right without the pen and the notebook at hand.

THEN WHY AREN’T YOU BLOGGING?!?!

I dunno… Blogging is like work… I just want to write. Mind you blogging is writing, I just pick one area to write and then make a fool of myself online with it… so that’s a good question… why am I not blogging… Well there is the time issue, I always seem to be so dang busy, I mean I still have three loads of laundry to fold and I am sick of having to dig for socks every morning. And the poor dog needs a haircut; I mean seriously she looks like a sheep somebody forgot to shear in a decade. And there is that list of stuff for the youth group.. SHIT! That starts up this week… I am sooo fucking behind! I should have done something over the holidays but I was so glad to have a chance to unwind and read that I didn’t even think about it…

BLOGGING!

Right, that was what I was thinking about. Ok so there was the time thing, plus it was the holidays, so I spent time with family. My brother is looking really good, I’m glad for that, he’s been through some stress lately so to see him in such high spirits was awesome. And OMGs my sister is the cutest thing ever, she was so excited to have us all there, and our present was a smash hit with her!! And my husband totally spoiled me this year, I hope I always remember to spoil him too. Is it sad I want to add that as a weekly reminder in my phone cuz I don’t feel like I am always attentive enough…

BLOGGING!

Damn it… ok so time and holidays. I could blog about the holidays, I bet everyone is sick to death about hearing how busy I am, fuck… I didn’t get into blogging to bitch. Why did I start blogging… oh right! I like to write and make a fool of myself, it was a match made in cyber heaven! That and I love reading about the lives of other people… how they mingle faith and practicality, what interesting things they have learned in life, cool experiences they may have had. Plus a lot of bloggers out there are awesome! They have learned soo many things and have great insights into life in general… even when they aren’t pagan I have learned a lot from other bloggers… and they make me think. I mean I’ve learned a lot about how other people approach life and faith from reading blogs by Athiests, Muslims, Jews, Buddhists and even Christians (from Progressives to Catholics!). It’s like a faith smorgasbord!!

BLOGGING!

DAMN IT!!! Right… ok so busy, holidays and why I blog… Oh that was a good idea to write on… wait… what was I thinking a moment ago… COME BACK HERE!!! Damn. It’s gone. Let’s hope it comes back. Hey maybe I should pay attention to this meeting again… nope still not related to me. I love attending an hour long meeting when my part of it lasts 5 minutes at the beginning. Could be worse, I could be doing year end stuff still! That was not fun. I think I hate my job… no … actually that isn’t true. I hate being bored, and parts of my job are boring. But that’s not the same thing. I have a great boss and awesome coworkers, and my job is important and helps people. That makes me feel better. It’s not my dream job but I think my dream job would not pay as well as this one, plus I can keep doing my dream job (actually it’s more like jobs since there is just a piece here and there, none of which make a cohesive whole) as my hobbies. I’m not defined by my work, I define me. What is my dream job anyway… well there is the card readings, love those. I should do more general Facebook readings for fun, playing musical instruments like drums and bagpipes, gardening and of course photography. Oh that’s right, I was going to do up a second blog for all my pictures as a side project of this whole Redneck Pagan thing…

Fuck…

Blogging… right….

I’m getting a coffee.