A conversation I had with myself (and in my head… I know
better than to walk around mumbling to myself)
Ok it has been forever
since you blogged… do you want to blog… do you like it?
Yes I love writing, it’s relaxing and enjoyable and I never
feel right without the pen and the notebook at hand.
THEN WHY AREN’T YOU
BLOGGING?!?!
I dunno… Blogging is like work… I just want to write. Mind
you blogging is writing, I just pick one area to write and then make a fool of
myself online with it… so that’s a good question… why am I not blogging… Well
there is the time issue, I always seem to be so dang busy, I mean I still have
three loads of laundry to fold and I am sick of having to dig for socks every
morning. And the poor dog needs a haircut; I mean seriously she looks like a
sheep somebody forgot to shear in a decade. And there is that list of stuff for
the youth group.. SHIT! That starts up this week… I am sooo fucking behind! I
should have done something over the holidays but I was so glad to have a chance
to unwind and read that I didn’t even think about it…
BLOGGING!
Right, that was what I was thinking about. Ok so there was
the time thing, plus it was the holidays, so I spent time with family. My
brother is looking really good, I’m glad for that, he’s been through some
stress lately so to see him in such high spirits was awesome. And OMGs my
sister is the cutest thing ever, she was so excited to have us all there, and
our present was a smash hit with her!! And my husband totally spoiled me this
year, I hope I always remember to spoil him too. Is it sad I want to add that
as a weekly reminder in my phone cuz I don’t feel like I am always attentive enough…
BLOGGING!
Damn it… ok so time and holidays. I could blog about the
holidays, I bet everyone is sick to death about hearing how busy I am, fuck… I
didn’t get into blogging to bitch. Why did I start blogging… oh right! I like
to write and make a fool of myself, it was a match made in cyber heaven! That
and I love reading about the lives of other people… how they mingle faith and
practicality, what interesting things they have learned in life, cool
experiences they may have had. Plus a lot of bloggers out there are awesome!
They have learned soo many things and have great insights into life in general…
even when they aren’t pagan I have learned a lot from other bloggers… and they
make me think. I mean I’ve learned a lot about how other people approach life
and faith from reading blogs by Athiests, Muslims, Jews, Buddhists and even
Christians (from Progressives to Catholics!). It’s like a faith smorgasbord!!
BLOGGING!
DAMN IT!!! Right… ok so busy, holidays and why I blog… Oh
that was a good idea to write on… wait… what was I thinking a moment ago… COME
BACK HERE!!! Damn. It’s gone. Let’s hope it comes back. Hey maybe I should pay
attention to this meeting again… nope still not related to me. I love attending
an hour long meeting when my part of it lasts 5 minutes at the beginning. Could
be worse, I could be doing year end stuff still! That was not fun. I think I
hate my job… no … actually that isn’t true. I hate being bored, and parts of my
job are boring. But that’s not the same thing. I have a great boss and awesome
coworkers, and my job is important and helps people. That makes me feel better.
It’s not my dream job but I think my dream job would not pay as well as this
one, plus I can keep doing my dream job (actually it’s more like jobs since
there is just a piece here and there, none of which make a cohesive whole) as
my hobbies. I’m not defined by my work, I define me. What is my dream job
anyway… well there is the card readings, love those. I should do more general Facebook
readings for fun, playing musical instruments like drums and bagpipes,
gardening and of course photography. Oh that’s right, I was going to do up a
second blog for all my pictures as a side project of this whole Redneck Pagan
thing…
Fuck…
Blogging… right….
I’m getting a coffee.
