Monday, October 14, 2013

Leaving a Group - Part 1: To Leave or Stay

Finding a Pagan Group/Temple/Grove/Coven/Circle seems to be the Holy Grail for Pagans. Almost every book I read there is at the very least a section, if not a whole chapter on how to find or form a group. There are websites full of articles on how to find a group, why finding a group is important, how wonderful it is to find a group and how it can become a second family. Many of these people, wisely so, give you warning signs of groups to avoid. They will tell you where to go to met them, ways to petition to join and failing that, how to form your own group. They give awesome rituals for you to use with the group, crafts and spells to work and even chants, prayers and songs to perform together. Finding a group sounds so great that we would do almost anything to find and be part of one!

 So let's say you have found a group to join, you're so stoked your significant other has to peel you off the ceiling for weeks on end. You meet them and after a few visits they decide to let you join (or after a few meetings with some people you decide to form a group), once again your significant other is having to chase you around cloud nine to remind you that it`s your turn to do the dishes. You spend weeks studying up, writing down ritual ideas and attending every single group event you can! You even spend hours hanging out with some members, having coffee, going shopping, watching movies. Life is great... kinda. As time goes on you notice that you don`t have the same enthusiasm , you feel blasé about events, the rituals do not move you and the whole group has gotten under your skin in a bad way. You begin to question why you are even bothering.

So is it time to pack up and move on... maybe, maybe not. Some situations, to me, necessitate an immediate departure! Any form of abuse, emotional, physical or sexual is not acceptable in any context, and is more than ample reason to run away fast! I also strongly recommend in cases of assault that you immediately go to your local police department and file charges. It will be the hardest thing you might have to do, but as long as these people hide in the shadows they will keep finding victims to assault. Sunlight is the best disinfectant, as my husband says, and by brining their behaviour to light will help to purge it from our communities. It might even help other victims come forward and seek justice as well.

 Other forms of abuse are more subtle but can be just as damaging, if your group leader or other group members are constantly berating you for not being able to come to certain events for medical or family reasons, that is abuse. Now if you are not living up to your commitments in the group, such as never being prepared, just not showing up because you had something better to do or canceling activities at the last minute, well they have a right to be ticked off. I`m talking about every time you offer an idea you get told it's dumb, or you show up to an event fully prepared but everything that goes wrong is blamed on you, If you are berated because you can`t make the odd movie night here and there because you don't have a baby sitter, or you can`t make a special event because of a family member is in hospital. These are still abusive situations and while not criminal, they are still damaging and let`s face it, life is tough enough without putting up with that shit.

If the group or group leaders begin asking for money for materials, building space or lessons, and don't show you where it all goes, they are probably crooks. Any good leader or group worth their salt has no problems providing receipts for everything and will never ask for more than what is needed. A larger organization that has permanent staff (volunteer or paid) or even a building of their own will have an established bank account and a financial reporting system. If these leaders are vague with their expenses, won`t let the general members see the bank statements and are still demanding annual membership fees, probably have something to hide and are not worth your time, attention or money.

Any group that tells you that you must do nude rituals  when you are very uncomfortable with the idea are not worthy of your trust. If the group leaders are saying that in order to get to a certain level you must master the Great Rite in Actual with them, even if you are against the idea and have told them upfront that you are not comfortable with it (for any reason at all), run away. This is a very subtle form of sexual abuse known as duress. Holding initiation or full membership in exchange for sex is wrong! Another subtle way they will try to pressure you to perform nude rituals and the Great Rite is by ignoring you. These people will be very interested in you, in providing extra training and mentorship. They will listen to what you have to say, will pump up your ego and flatter you, until you draw that line and say no sex. Suddenly these people do not have the time of day for you, they won`t respond to your emails, ignore you at group meeting and won`t tell you why. They hope that this pressure will make you do anything to get them to teach you again, including changing your mind and practicing the Great Rite with them. Did that last few sentences make your skin crawl, good, because it is disgusting what they are doing.

Other reasons to leave a group may not be as serious. One big reason to leave is if the group no longer matches your ethical and moral compass, if the group starts engaging in practices that you are not comfortable with or that you feel is morally wrong, you have every reason to walk away. These can be big things, like deciding to engage in multiple sexual partners without protection in ritual, or something as simple as calling together different pantheons of Gods in ritual when you firmly believe that you call form all the same pantheon (not saying one way is right or wrong, it is a personal choice).  The group may change their focus, from say a non pantheon specific path to an Egyptian path, and you are strictly Norse. If this is the case there is nothing wrong with wishing them well and walking away.

Another reason to walk away is if the group changes focus, for example let's say you work a job where you cannot belong to any political activist groups (government employees and Military personnel cannot be involved in public political groups due to the fact that they work for the people, they can still vote and write to their political representatives, but cannot be part of anything public). Now lets say the group you belong to decide to launch into a huge political campaign. If this is the case your livelihood is at risk and you will have to decide if your group or your job is more important.

Changing jobs or residence may also be a reason to step away from a group. If your work schedule is such that you cannot go to any meetings or rituals you may need to step aside since you cannot meet the commitments. Likewise if you are moving over two hours away you might not be able to be there for all the events due to the travel time (and the road conditions). It also might be better for you to step down and make a clean exit rather than trying to hold on until somebody else has to ask you to step away.

Major disagreements with group members can also be a reason to leave, but before you do examine the disagreements. The more time we spend with other people the more we notice things about them that drive us crazy! They might have a bad habit, a catchphrase or do something really dumb that just seems to act like nails on the chalkboard to us. In these cases you may just have to suck it up butter cup, sometimes people do stuff that annoys us, and we can learn to let it go, or let it wreck us. You might be having a disagreement with the group leaders, find out if its because you have some actual problems with how they are running things, or are you jealous because you wanted their position? If that's the cased then you have some issues to work out sweetie!

Boredom can drive you to distraction when in a group, after we spend a lot of time with other people we get comfortable and fall into patterns and ruts. This is not a very good reason to leave a group, you may want to bring it up with others in the group, do they feel the same? Maybe the group just needs a good shake up by trying out new rituals, reading new books, going on an outing to a local pagan event to get the creative juices flowing again.

There may not be a tangible reason to leave a group though. Sometimes we just grow apart, your path might take a different direction, you might no longer be getting any spiritual or emotional fulfillment from the group. You may still be on great terms with everyone but just have a very strong urge to move on. Or the group may as a group decide that it is time to move on and close the group. There is nothing wrong with any of these reasons, all good things must eventually come to an end. Just like the rest of the world groups are born, live, decline and eventually pass on. So, what do we do when it is time to leave a group? We'll discuss that next time!

Yours Humbly

The Redneck Pagan